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Its all about control.
Thats why I do it.
Everything else in my life is spiraling,
dangerously crashing down around me.
My body.
Its the one thing I can control.
I decide...
when,
where,
how often.
(Its become very often)
I've begun to realize, though
that its more than control.
Thats why I first started.
But why do I continue?
Adrenaline.
Its amazing.
Orgasmic.
Its a delicious moment,
Everything tasty and sweet.
Coursing through my veins in a sugary rush.
BAM!
Time is up.
It is time to cleanse.
Oh, how it gives me the chills,
putting everything in...
Only to watch it all rush back out.
Goosebumps.
No other rush in the world
is quite as good as this one.
Thats why I do it.
Everything else in my life is spiraling,
dangerously crashing down around me.
My body.
Its the one thing I can control.
I decide...
when,
where,
how often.
(Its become very often)
I've begun to realize, though
that its more than control.
Thats why I first started.
But why do I continue?
Adrenaline.
Its amazing.
Orgasmic.
Its a delicious moment,
Everything tasty and sweet.
Coursing through my veins in a sugary rush.
BAM!
Time is up.
It is time to cleanse.
Oh, how it gives me the chills,
putting everything in...
Only to watch it all rush back out.
Goosebumps.
No other rush in the world
is quite as good as this one.
Literature
Heart
Only I can feel
the pain,
of millions of tiny men,
pulling on my heart.
They are hitting it,
stabbing it,
making it bleed.
It's going to explode
soon.
I wish I could die
soon.
The one man in my heart,
is holding on for dear life.
I can't see him.
So the pain increases.
My legs give in.
My Eyes flood with water.
My hands clutch my chest.
It's too late...
My heart is dead.
Literature
Starstuck
Wait, didn't there used to be a girl? A girl with starstruck eyes who chased after scraps of dreams and specks of dust.
What happened to her?
She's gone now, gone forever. But there's this other girl who replaced her. With social anxiety and a strong fear of abandonment. (Well that's okay, the stars with help her with that, won't they?) Identity disturbance and intense anger. (Where are the stars?) Recurrent self-harming/suicidal behavior. (Stars? Stars!) Dissociative symptoms, emotional instability. (My God, where did they go?)
Oh, you can stop searching for her stars. They're light years away.
Anyway. She may also have depersonalization
Literature
What Is This?
One day,
Two days,
Three days,
Four.
When am I going to be able,
to say no more.
Five days,
Six days,
Seven days,
Eight.
He's always gone.
Missing in time.
Nine days,
Ten.
Do you think he is hurt?
Eleven days,
Twelve.
Is it a joke?
Thirteen.
Oh, thank god, he is back.
"I promise not to leave"
I've heard that one
before...
but I say,
"God I hope you don't,
I love you."
For I am weak...
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I've been reading this book called LoveSick by Jake Coburn and was inspired to write this. The character in the story named Erika has a severe case of bulimia nervosa and i kinda based the poem on how her experience is described in the book. Tell me whatcha think!
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It's such a great poem, it's kinda touching because I have Bulimia. Great job!